Slow it down.

                                                                                And just like that the end is here. 

3 Years ago i started college. I was never so nervous before. I just came straight from high school and in less then a month. College is over; Forever!

I have been thinking about this for a long time. I have been planning my life since i was toddler. 

But each year on college i realized that i learned more and more everyday..

I got new experiences..

Some good.. Some bad.. Some bittersweet.. Some just in-between.

I have played every scenario through my head as to where I would be at this time in my life...

Married, having children, being single, loner, still fighting college, working, .... 

So many things have been in my mind.

But i think you can't plan the future.. it just happens..

and somehow here I am in the one scenario I didn't see coming experiencing every emotion you can name. 

What screws us up most in life is the picture in our head of how its supposed to be.

So for now i'm trying to take every ounce in my life. 

I can't imagine my life any other way..

So i decided to be okay with how it is..

7 days before my nephew should be born.

30 days before i graduate.

40 days before i go to Hawaii. 

I'm ready! let's beat finals!

More coming soon...

Change will be here soon and there is nothing that i can do about it! 

Shae!

This is real, this is life.

Dear bloggers,

I'm Shae. And yes to answer the question. That's my complete and only name.
The meaning of the name is Admirable. so now you know what to do. It's not a dutch name for sure.
But hey i know many people with weird names. to continue with the story.
I'm a dutch (Belgian) girl who has lived her whole life in that little country.


My best friend is blogging.. and so i am now. why? just because it's the perfect way to lose feelings you had for ages.. you can write about everything and no one will blame you.only those you write the truth about.. but hey let not care about them.

My life has been easy.. but i had my up and downs too. I heard some real hard stories about others.
And that made me realize i'm happy. I wanna share a word with you. it's boring to read.. but please read it.. it's important to read..

How to accept. This is real, this is life.

Accepting and blessing our circumstance is a powerful tool for transformation. In fact, this potent combination is a spiritual elixir that can work miracles in our lives.

What is acceptance? Acceptance is surrendering to what is: our circumstances, our feelings, our problems, our financial status, our work, our health, our relationships with other people, the delay of our dreams. Before we can change anything in our life we have to recognize that this is the way its meant to be right now. For me, acceptance has become what I call the long sign of the soul. It’s the closed eyes in prayer, perhaps even the quiet tears. It’s “all right,” as in “All right, You lead, I’ll follow.” And it’s “all right,” as in “Everything is going to turn out all right.” This is simply part of the journey.

Over the years I have discovered that much of my struggle to be content despite outside circumstances has arisen when I stubbornly resisted what was actually happening in my life at that present moment. But I have also learned that when I surrender to the reality of a particular situation—when I don’t continue to resist, but accept—a softening in my soul occurs. Suddenly I am able to open up to receive all the goodness and abundance available to me because acceptance brings with it so much relief and release. 

It’s as if the steam of struggle has been allowed to escape from life’s pressure cooker.

Whatever situation exists in your life right now, accept it. Natalie Goldberg believes that “Our task is to say a holy yes to the real things of our life as they exist.” Cast a glance around and acknowledge what’s going on. This is my tiny kitchen with the dirty floor, this is how much I weight, this is my checking account balance, this is where I work right now. This is what is really happening in my life at the present moment. This is okay. This is real life.

                Today, let go of the struggle. Allow the healing process of change to being.

A friend sent this to me on one of the worst days I've had in a long time.. Everything went wrong.. nothing was good and i would have been able to kill someone... I spilled tea on my final paper, i kept on running into a person i didn't want to see. i kept on getting weird messages and bad news... the list kept on going.. just on of those days...

But as soon i read this.. I felt happy again. I tried to accept and realized that it's just a day.

My reality is pretty awesome..

I have been to Seattle with my best friend.

I'm graduating in less then a month.

I'm going to Hawaii for the whole summer..

I'm having the best boyfriend for more then 7 years now.

I'm having a cute dog..

I'm having the best friends and that's all life's about.

So if you feel sad; read this.

And realize how amazing life is.. 

Xx

Shae!